I'm exhausted from fighting the same battles over and over for the past year...no end in sight...bloody, fucking exhausting fighting over my love for another human being...

feeling alienated and highly disillusioned...

when the call was connected, i was filled with an incredible sense of relief..it's amazing how much comfort a voice can bring, even if that voice sounds strained..

this just really hasn't been the best week ever, but i'm trying like hell to keep my head above the waves...

not to worry, life did manage to give me some good news to go along with this ( Read more... )

reevaluating..

there is at least one time a day where i wish i could just go back to being that little miss badass that didn't need anyone...

maybe if i click my heels hard enough.....

there was a point when being more vulnerable and open felt better...

i suppose things change...

very often, things in life have a special way of falling apart...when that happens, i usually go with whatever my gut tells me will either make things right or heal the hurt...this weekend has indeed been memorable for these reasons...i try so very hard to do and say what i think is right...i've been making strides at communication...i'm almost ( Read more... )

life and the people, their ideals, their relationships contained within are all constantly evolving...quite often, it is necessary to take a look at and analyze the things that mean most to you...for me, it's probably not the best day to be soul searching since i'm having a bit of a cranky fit, but we really don't choose these things, do we?

with ( Read more... )

i am fairly certain that you are ignoring me, and when you aren't, you're being all blah..i know this because i have treated someone the same way before...i have acted as if i didn't notice someone who was right there and like i was just generally apathetic when i was forced to "notice" said person...as socially inept as i can be, i can read ( Read more... )